Waz up which you man? (I am from Louz-ana–I talk crazy sometime! So–get over it!) Me?
Well, I have been working on a Year in Review post … looking back at photos from my year’s journey down Obesity Lane, and eating some Kick Butt Food (more about that tomorrow). WOW! I can say I am VERY happy with where I am now. I know I have a lot more things that I want to accomplish … BUT … I am pretty darn happy as a rule with my personal progress. I wish I had not gained since I returned from Alaska, but that is just how my cookie crumbled, and I have to roll with that and make the best of my new year. I am, and I will!
I have great friends behind me (check out Butt Kickers Club to see my Blog Buddies–they are the BEST!), a great medical team, wonderful family support, and the best husband a girl could ever hope for … so no matter what … I WIN!!! I like that.
I guess you can feel the positive shift in my writing tone by now. That would be several days of rest followed by a couple of REALLY GREAT nights of sleep. Man … what an attitude changer sleep is. Also, my Doc upped the Thyroid meds. I guess I was draggin through the mud because I had too many weights against me to function properly. I am really blessed to have such help surrounding me. I feel that I have a safety net of support that will catch me should I stumble. For the first time in my adult life–where weight loss is concerned–I feel like I am going to win what ever battle I set my mind to.
What a wonderful feeling. The feeling I cannot lose. If I don’t lose another ounce — I am in a wonderfully healthy place. If I gain several pounds — I KNOW I will kick it back to the curb with exercise, and, if need be, I will hit the diet trail hard, and it will be off in no time flat!
This is a big deal for me. I have been stewing in my weight loss juices trying to figure out my next step–not
wanting to lose the ground I have gained–feeling a little panicked because I couldn’t keep moving forward. I was on constant simmer (notice all the food-isms–wonder if that means anything?), when all these wonderful thoughts, previously mentioned, occurred to me. I began to feel myself empowered. I can do this hold pattern. I can rest. I can let my body recover. Why? Because I can handle what ever comes. This was a GREAT feeling.
I needed to arrive here before stepping on the scales. I simply HAD to be at this place of stability, because there is a possibility that my scale news will be much worse than I want to see. Still, I HAVE TO get back on the scales again. I cannot allow myself to get off course. I have come too far to lose my footing now. I am so glad I have begun the shift towards my internal center; my state of being at peace with myself. I HAD to get there before moving forward with any plan, and this lack of center is most likely the reason I have been unable to develop my plan. How can you develop a plan for your life when you cannot handle the truth of your situation? I don’t think you can. I had to be at the place where the scale didn’t matter. What my weight is or is not right now is just a fact or truth. I must know it, own it, and act according to what will get me to my ultimate goal of a healthy lifestyle. Living in ignorance will NOT help me with living healthy. Only truth about what I eat, how I stay active, and knowing what I weigh is a useful tool that will help me keep my feet on solid ground.
Today, I believe, I am at that place mentaly where I CAN tackle my life. I am at the place where I can know the truth. I am sure the correction of physical problems has helped my attitude immensely–and I am beyond grateful for that! I am ready for next week’s weight in whatever the out come … How are YOU?
P.S. Will you hold my hand if I get news so bad I cry?