Missing my long bike rides.
Not much up over here, but that song sounded fun. I need fun. Lots of fun. My grand babies tend to make me smile when my world is falling apart.
My health has somewhat stabilized. This is good. Still, I am languishing in limbo land with moving forward in strength. After being sick for such a long time I think I need a fitness plan. One that I can stick too. That may sound strange coming from me — for those of you have followed my blog or known me — but I am really weak. Maddeningly weak. Still, I am better off than when I first started my health journey five or six years ago, when I could only walk on a treadmill for 5 to 10 minutes before having to lay back in bed from exhaustion. So, I should focus on the positives. I can go for a long walk all by myself without fear of death, but sometimes I really get sick of the constant struggle.
My health (I think this is so for most of us) is a constant struggle. Life is a constant struggle. I think IF I could just grasp that my life will be filled with constant trial, aggravation, and pain …that I might somewhere find my silver lining, and then possibly I could embrace all of life; the good, the bad, and the ugly. I believe that is the key to finding happiness and peace … Acceptance of life and what comes.
The food isn’t all bad, but limited and I’M BORED.
I was talking with a fellow weight loss buddy the other day about accepting my bodies current condition, and my working to move forward in a sensible fashion. Over the past year I have experienced a lot of setbacks, but I have also learned a LOT. I have some tummy issues that I am working on right now … also why life kinda sucks at the moment–who likes a limited diet?? NO ONE! I know I like the 20Lb. weight loss that has come with this new diet–just not the limits. I have identified several food intolerances–hoping to heal up this belly of mine so that I can add these fav foods back in the future. I’ve learned that my heart rate gets up too high at times, and that I am going to have to modify how hard I push my body–totally pisses me off! My body will respond to the pushing and get stronger, but it also stays under too much stress and causes other issues in my body that begin over time to build up. Then, I get what happened last year–MAJOR DISTRESS and ILLNESS. I don’t want any more of that. I have had to accept that I cannot push myself as hard as I want too … this goes completely against my grain.
This going against my grain is why I am having a hard time putting together a simple workout that I can follow and encourage myself with. I am making a promise to myself that I am going to post it tomorrow. I am giving myself a deadline. I will be slightly ashamed of how wimpy it will be, but I am going to be happy with that wimpy. I am declaring this NOW. That way I will start sharing my workouts with you all–holding myself accountable, and rejoicing in my small victories. I know that they will lead to bigger ones, I’ve seen it before. I have always said not to despise small beginnings, but I NEVER expected to back at small beginnings AGAIN!! UUHHHHGGGGG!!
So there you have it … what’s up.
Check y’all tamarry.
Shonnie
P.S. Chat me up in the comments … I’ve missed you guys! Come on … I know you can say something … even if it just HI. 🙂
Diary of an Angry Fat Woman 
I remember that song, and the title of the post had me smiling before I read another word. I’m always working on weight loss plans, but my photographs show no evidence of it sadly
I remember it too … hahaha … I keep singing it in my head. You look pretty lean Mr. Wells. I love the book that you are working on. I am so excited about how you have moved forward with writing your book, when I left my plans in the dust. It gives me great hope. Thanks for plowing the way! 😀
Hi Shonnie:
I am reading a book called Radical Acceptance as I still have not grasped the concept you too are struggling with. All we can do is keep trying and some effort is definitely better than none. The back operation has not produced the results I expected. Still struggling to walk, mostly with a cane. Makes me feel like 78 instead of 68..but I will quit my bitching. Miss Dick Big Time. I can fill the hours but I can’t fill my heart. His smile just would light up my life. Hope you have a successful 2014 in your goals and just keep lovin that husband of yours and your kids and grandkids. I was so touched that Mike called me on my birthday. Hugs and Love,
Nancy
That is true … all we can do is keep trying. In the trying we WIN! I hope we both have much better health in 2014. I am so glad that Mike called you! 😀 I hope you had a great day.
Just keep up the good work, Shonnie, and be patient. You are much better than when we first met, You are stronger, better balanced, less problems with your body, and you can ride the bike around the planet……you will get back to where you want to be, just be patient!
Hi Shonnie. Thanks for sharing!
Thanks for letting me know you are out there. 🙂
Shun the Chemist and Marketers who drive our appetites and lets start listening to our own bodies. I will be following you again!
I believe limits are good….there are things out there in the food world that are bad for us. (They defile our temples) So as we each learn what our bodies need on a cellular level we will search and find the best dishes to make that serve us and enjoy the full flavor of delicious food! Lets all become hippies and love ourselves more by taking care of our bodies in 2014! Rock on Shonnie!
Thanks Greg!! I need the support of good friends. I’m gonna take my body on a healthy journey one way or the other.