If you saw this woman eating at a restaurant, would you judge her on the food choices she made? Or would you think she is just out with family enjoying a splurge if she was eating something that was not exactly “LIGHT”? That woman was me when I worked my butt off trying to lose. I weighed 256 pounds–I had lost from 275. I worked out with a trainer, and ate lean and clean 95% of the time, if you doubt me … just ask my family. I would NEVER go out to eat by myself at this size, because people felt free to comment about my size … I wasn’t really human–I was fat … so it was OK.
People make assumptions about people who are overweight that are not always correct. Many times they are correct, but even so … why treat that person in a manner you would NEVER want to be treated? What makes people think they know the answer to why other people are overweight? I just do not understand the need to bring someone who is already suffering down. Can you explain this? It boggles my mind. I just do not understand the need to make another person feel bad about themselves. I don’t get it.
Why am I bringing up the past, when I clearly do not weigh this much? I’m kinda pissed that my body doesn’t work like it should. I’m not angry pissed, but sort of winded, slightly saddened. I read a post this morning about another person who is trying the same exact product that I am, who dropped 4 pounds on her first day–it kinda gut punched me. I have been working with this product for three weeks, and I lost 5 pounds and found two back. I am sincerely happy for this woman who lost weight so fast. I know there will be a leveling out for her, because this isn’t a lose-weight-super-fast type of product, but IF she has eaten terribly before using this product–it will shift her world fast. I am so jealous. Happy for her, but so jealous because nothing but OptiFast did that for me. NOTHING! I cannot bring myself to go back to completely liquid food right now. I am so F-ing sick of being on a diet. I just wanna live.
My daughter came down to visit with me at the beach … she needed a break, and we were talking about the product that I am using and about a friend of her’s that might really benefit from trying it. She said to me, “Mom, she eats crap. She’s the first to admit it. She would probably do amazing, because when these folks make tiny little changes big things happen for them. I know when I eat like you, I lose weight every time.” I almost choked on those words. My daughter supports me and was not intending to cause me pain. I am glad that my family knows the truth and supports me, but I wish with all my heart that the words were not true. I wish I ate like crap and could change it–then, my problems would be solved.
I wish my abs were made in the kitchen. I wish my ass would drop size because I stopped drinking sodas–I don’t drink sodas not even diet. Only club soda plain if I must have bubbly water. I wish that just because I stopped having a glass of wine with meals that my dress size would go down, but it doesn’t. I can lose. It just has to be so flippin’ extreme that I hate my life.
Still … I press onward. I will continue to try this product even though I don’t lose like everyone else, because it has caused my blood sugar crashes to stop … so it is worth the press. I am hoping in time that the supplemental product will equate to weight loss that allows my healthy diet and exercise to be the force for change in my life that it should be. I know the science behind blood sugar elevation and weight gain … so if I can keep mine steady, eat good food, and remain active over time this should pay off for me in spades. Maybe even return my body to the powerhouse it once was. My mom and dad are still very fit–so I have hope.
I realize I am being very cryptic about what I am doing … if you wanna know more just shoot me an email or message me on FB and I will give you the info. I am just not trying to push anything on my blog at this time. Maybe later, if it works wonders for me, but at this moment I am just working on myself. I am trying to find a path that will lead me to a place of stability and calm. When I find that path, you can be assured that I will share the details with everyone.
Next time you see an obese person eating … no matter what they are eating … stop before you shame them in your mind. YOU have NO idea why they are where they are. You have no clue what is going on in their life. Maybe they are allowing themselves a splurge day so that life is still worth living. Maybe they are having a bad day and lost control … if they did … SO FRIGGIN’ WHAT! Let them be. Smile at them. Treat them like they are human and worthy of respect, because they are. Who knows, your kindness may give wind to their wings and help them sore to the next level. Don’t be quick to give advice on what they should or should not eat … PROMISE YOU they don’t want to hear it–unless they have asked.
Until next time … treat each other with kindness. Lets shoot for shameless living–a life free of shame. I promise you it won’t hurt you one tiny little bit.