No … I didn’t die …

I have been invisible though. I have just been trying to exist to be … Trying to be there for my family at all the important things, but failing almost as much as succeeding at being a participant in my life.  I have always been acutely aware that life is short and then you die.…

Mean People

I know I haven’t written much lately, but it isn’t for the reasons you might imagine.  I have not lost interest.  I have not gotten so depressed I can’t write.  I’m not avoiding the reality of gaining all my weight back.  That I am 260 pound woman again.  My life is blowing up with amazingly…

A leisurely walk

After writing the other day — I had a hankering to write again.  I missed you all.  I am always amazed at how many of you still follow along There is something about writing in this blog that makes me feel motivated.  I had not gone outdoors for any activity in a week, before writing…

Spiraling

I am Spiraling, but not out of control.  I am in a whirlwind of amazing things and yet … I sit on my bed puzzling about what to write in my diary.  Do I try and formulate a way to say things in a different way–about my same subject of morbid obesity?  I’ve had numerous…

Hopeful …

Yesterday started slow, but picked up steam.  I felt like going shopping.  So I went!  That may seem like a small thing for me to be celebrating, but that hasn’t happened in over a year.  This Is Huge! We changed/upped my thyroid meds yet again over the past two weeks. I have to go up…

Strange Things …

Do you ever read things and go, wow, I must be really strange?  I do this quite often.  This morning was–Toe Separator Socks–for people who wear tight shoes–I go barefoot as much as possible or sandals!  People keep buildings TOO hot–so I think I am good on the socks gadget.  Am I the only person…

Short Break

I took a moments break that turned into a week.  Have you ever done that? I thought about writing over the week, there were things that I wanted to write about, but part of me was angry with everything in my life–even the good things.  Part of me was throwing a fit about everything–I realized…

Gone Fishing …

… not really… I thought “Gone Fishing” sounded better than out to lunch–I couldn’t think of a better food related OUT for my title…I digress.  Last week was an exciting blur!  We, Mike and I, traveled for our business through out parts of North Louisiana.  I did visit with family and friends.  AND–I did mega…