Fat girl limping

That’s pretty much all I do these days.  It is so hot outside that I have trouble getting out and working out.  So… I wobble around or go at early in the morning. I am so angry–I am fatter than I have ever been.  I live in constant fear of dying.  We lost our insurance…

Spiraling

I am Spiraling, but not out of control.  I am in a whirlwind of amazing things and yet … I sit on my bed puzzling about what to write in my diary.  Do I try and formulate a way to say things in a different way–about my same subject of morbid obesity?  I’ve had numerous…

Manic Ramblings of a Food Deprived Mind

I am having horrible withdrawals from food.  When I look at the shakes, I want to scream and punch someone.  I tell myself this is temporary.  I am not going to live here.  I am going to move on shortly to real — HEALTHY — food.  I don’t have to fear.  Everything is going to…